A Complicated Poem

Fighting for the future But still stuck in the past Wanting to stand out But also fit in at last   Feeling more secure But needing reassurance Supporting many people With myself as less important   Wanting peace on earth But can’t get peace of mind Attacking those who oppose me But preaching how to […]

“Where I’m At Right Now”: 2019 Pt 1

These past couple weeks has been a hell of a roller coaster for me. A very exhausting one. The one good thing about it is that it’s similar but far, far from as crazy as it was last year around this time. The first thing is my medication. Last year when the weather started getting […]

Some Therapy Homework

Gonna share these rap lyics I just wrote with my therapist tomorrow. I think she’ll be very proud. I know I am: “I won’t turn the other cheek I won’t accept that I’m a freak I won’t let u bring me down I won’t turn my fucking frown upside down I won’t respect crookedness I […]

Positively, Authentic Me

There is something that has been bugging me for a good part of this year so far. Actually scratch that. It’s been the better part of my whole life, but I say this year because of me now being more self aware than ever before. This is my association with the word “positive”. If you […]

My New Therapist (Part 4)

Every week I have a very productive appointment with my therapist. The 45 minutes go by so fast but I always leave feeling different than when I came in. Sometimes happier, sometimes vulnerable, sometimes angry. The second and third ones I mentioned have nothing to do with my therapist keep in mind. She is still […]

One Year Later…

I started my blog over a year ago now. Then: Two days after I published my very first post, I was dragged over to the Emergency Room for a panic attack I was having in the middle of the night. My idea back then was that everything I was struggling with, that I was the […]

My New Therapist (Part 3)

(I am holding off on writing and posting the remaining chapters of my “My Traumatic Adolescence” series. It was really hard actually to write Parts 1 & 2 and those represented the less darker times during the period of my life the series focuses on. But they still brought up a lot of emotions. So […]