Having a mental illness such as Bipolar and PTSD (I have both, with Aspergers/Autism on top of them as many of my regular readers know already) can make our reactions to certain things in the present actually be what’s mentally a reaction to things in the past. It’s a life-long struggle that many of us […]
Fighting for the future But still stuck in the past Wanting to stand out But also fit in at last Feeling more secure But needing reassurance Supporting many people With myself as less important Wanting peace on earth But can’t get peace of mind Attacking those who oppose me But preaching how to […]
These past couple weeks has been a hell of a roller coaster for me. A very exhausting one. The one good thing about it is that it’s similar but far, far from as crazy as it was last year around this time. The first thing is my medication. Last year when the weather started getting […]
Last summer, one of my followers on Twitter from the Follow Back Resistance online movement reached out to help me on an evening I was really pissed off about something. I remember it was on the same day I uploaded my second video on YouTube. But forget the exact context. Anyway, while we were talking […]
What happened to my smile? If I have so many blessings, Why am I now in denial? Can’t stop stressing All because of one triggered thought? Not the first time that’s happened I go from feeling free To anger anguish and sadness All I want is pure happiness And yesterday, it was right in reach […]
I was really set at that point to connect with as many Mental Health advocates on Twitter as I could and relate to what we have been going through. Some of these people I connected with were small groups leading a specific mental health campaign and bad their own website, YouTube page and an additional […]
Just having that boost of confidence from talking to one caring person on the My Disability Matters site made it much easier for me to get myself over to the Behavioral Health office and use this new appointment as the opportunity to self advocate for myself to get officially diagnosed with Bipolar. When I met […]
On the first day I started off my new Twitter account, the app suggested I customize my profile by following 60 or more famous people that fall under three categories that interest me. Thinking this will grow my web traffic I followed around 100 people right away which were automatically picked by Twitter when I […]
Last week was very dark for me. First off, there were some family related problems I don’t want to talk about on this blog obviously, but it was scary for all of us for a few days. Anyway, that same week I had another appointment with my psychiatrist. I came in there with two things […]
I’m in a really dark place right now. I can’t relax. I can’t stop dwelling on all of the setbacks I had because I don’t fit the status quo. I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop losing energy no matter how much coffee I consume or how much sleep I get. I can’t stop being […]
